WHEN BAD NEWS IS GOOD
It's no secret that Julie and I are trying to have a baby. Several weeks ago, our fertility doctor approached us concerning a fertility study that she was going to invite a couple of her patients to participate in. She told us that we were "perfect candidates." At first, I was very skeptical about participating in any kind of experiment, but as she explained everything and gave us paperwork outlining the details, we decided that it was definitely a win/win situation for everyone. The study involved receiving one of two drugs; both of which were already the doctor's top two preferred methods of treatment for us. The benefit for us was that we would have no costs associated with the treatment or doctor's visits, and our insurance does not cover fertility at all. (Obviously this is very expensive.) There was nothing sketchy about the experiment; it was simply a study of the comparison of these two methods of treatment... no other variables. After we made the decision to participate, we were excited...
Late last evening, Julie received a call from her doctor who regretted to inform us that we had been denied for participation in the study. It hit us like a ton of bricks. I didn't even know there was a chance... I thought things were lined up and ready for treatment to begin next week. The reason for this was because some blood tests revealed that Julie's hormone levels were too low. "What do you mean,'too low?'" I asked. Basically the only reason that I have procured is that our chances of getting pregnant right now are very low, and the conductors of the study would prefer to have someone participate that had a "reasonable" chance of getting pregnant.
Although this news was upsetting to us both, I have to praise God for answering prayer. Throughout the past month, my prayer has been for God to close the door to this study if it is not what is best for us. Who knows... we could have participated in this study and had six children because it wasn't the right timing. Or we could have participated in high hopes to only receive an apology from the doctors at the end. Whatever His reasons were, I'm thankful that His ways are above my ways. The great thing about a Christ centered marriage is that it's the tough times that really draw you closer.
Late last evening, Julie received a call from her doctor who regretted to inform us that we had been denied for participation in the study. It hit us like a ton of bricks. I didn't even know there was a chance... I thought things were lined up and ready for treatment to begin next week. The reason for this was because some blood tests revealed that Julie's hormone levels were too low. "What do you mean,'too low?'" I asked. Basically the only reason that I have procured is that our chances of getting pregnant right now are very low, and the conductors of the study would prefer to have someone participate that had a "reasonable" chance of getting pregnant.
Although this news was upsetting to us both, I have to praise God for answering prayer. Throughout the past month, my prayer has been for God to close the door to this study if it is not what is best for us. Who knows... we could have participated in this study and had six children because it wasn't the right timing. Or we could have participated in high hopes to only receive an apology from the doctors at the end. Whatever His reasons were, I'm thankful that His ways are above my ways. The great thing about a Christ centered marriage is that it's the tough times that really draw you closer.